dear shas,

　　exactly one year ago you were diagnosed with a form of cancer and all our dreams came dashing down. i never thought that i would have to deal with something like this in my life. everything happened in the middle of my exams and i tried so hard to cope. you were so remarkably wonderful during the most difficult time of your life. no one knows, not even me, how difficult those few months were for you.

　　i never really thanked you for being so strong and understanding for my sake. i was so scared for you and for our future together. i am still so scared though i know that you have defeated the illness. no one understands my decision to remain with you and become your wife. if they only knew how much i love you, they would not question my decision.

　　your happiness means everything to me. i love you more than you could possibly know and my love keeps growing every time i see you struggling to make me happy. i love you, baby, now and always.

　　love always,

　　penny